This is the worst ing day of my ing life. I lost my phone because I got wasted, after having gotten it because I lost the previous phone while wasted.

It was a Blackberry, the best mother ****ing phone i've ever had, which I spent 3 hours on modifying it so that I could play songs on it (since it was missing a component..but that's another story) which my grandpa was kind enough to get for me even though he doesn't have much money (i feel ing god awful about this. God awful)

I spent 2 hours in 106 degree heat looking for the damn thing all over the place outside. I'm almost out of ing booze. I dont know what the im going to do with my life this whole summer. I dont want to go to college for about a year, after wanting to drop out of high school about 5 times and barely graduating. Please don't give me advice about college...I'm not in the mood to hear it.

AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF

I thought I was going to go on a date with a chick of the kind of sort that I wouldn't be surprised seeing Micheal ****ing Bay with, until I found out that she has a ****ing boyfriend.

I hate to complain and be a little bitch. I really do.

BUT FUCK. MY. FUCKING. LIFE.

F. M. L.

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-_-

Sad thing is, none of this shit is going to change after this damn blog.

Im just going to get ed up, which never solves anything, and then its going to be the same mother ing bullshit all over again.

God ing Damn It

AND NOW I JUST POKED MY EYE TRYING TO SCRATCH MY EYELID.

GOD DAMN IT. FUCK.

For those who are bored: here is the very short conversation we had (well...i'm only posting the part that matters.)

Lionhart617 7:02 pm
(7:02:54 PM): when are you free?
Binx 7:05 pm
(7:05:57 PM): Most likely Saturday
Lionhart617 7:06 pm
(7:06:13 PM): want to hang out? :]
Binx 7:11 pm
(7:11:43 PM): Sure.
Lionhart617 7:12 pm
(7:12:18 PM): hmm. Saturday tomorrow?
Binx 7:12 pm
(7:12:58 PM): Yup, hopefully I get out at nine though
Lionhart617 7:13 pm
(7:13:27 PM): its cool. i can hang out at whatever time. not sure if you can. i really enjoy the night though. heh. xp wont be as hot too
Binx 7:14 pm
(7:14:54 PM): Haha I'm 19 with a kid I do as I please. Hell half the time I don't go home!
Lionhart617 7:15 pm
(7:15:49 PM): Lol. Yeah. I don't ever have anyone asking me when im going to be home. :p h
Binx 7:18 pm
(7:18:32 PM): You have a car?
Lionhart617 7:18 pm
(7:18:46 PM): ... ... No. <_<
Binx 7:19 pm
(7:19:16 PM): Haha Aww boo
Lionhart617 7:19 pm
(7:19:42 PM): Yeah, I know. I'm getting one sometime this summer, but yeah. :p h Not yet. Do you?
Binx 7:20 pm
(7:20:16 PM): Yup
Lionhart617 7:21 pm
(7:21:00 PM): Okay good. heh.
(7:21:19 PM): For future reference, do you mind if i smoke? Cause I'm cool with not smoking at all if it bothers you.

Binx 7:32 pm
(7:32:15 PM): Um not really my Bf is a big smoker :/ h Haha I don't really care
Lionhart617 7:48 pm
(7:48:16 PM): Alright :]
Binx 7:49 pm
(7:49:52 PM): What we gonna do?
Lionhart617 7:50 pm
(7:50:10 PM): I dont know. Any ideas? If not, i'll try to come up with something.
Binx 7:50 pm
(7:50:49 PM): I have no clue
Lionhart617 7:51 pm
(7:51:52 PM): Hmmm. I'll think.
Binx 7:53 pm
(7:53:51 PM): Okey dokey

I like how I just said "Alright :]" and then I come here and post this. She probably wouldnt want to hang out anymore if she saw this (we're hanging out as friends...which blows) but its not like it matters anyway.