New Year Blog - Another eye-opening New Year leads to Bigger New Year's Resolutions
Usually I would divide my New Year Resolutions and what I actually did on New Year's Eve into two separate blogs, but yesterday was quite the unique day, with the events of the day leading directly to my New Year Resolutions.
Despite my usual unwillingness to ever go out, New Year's Eve was almost always spent up late with friends or family. Recently over the last couple of years, New Year's Eves have been quite interesting with me usually ending up doing new experiences and what not. This year was no exception. While nothing wild happened like last year, (where I got semi drunk and smoked weed for the first time) this New Year's Eve was my most eye opening yet and I had some serious life changing revelation that came out of the blue.
They day started with the one girl I dated a long time ago deciding she was going to take me out to lunch and to meet her friends, since she was invited to go shopping here in my town. She lives about an hour away. I really really like this girl, and we even dated for a little while but had an odd falling out. Those who read my blogs will remember the story in full, but basically what happened was she wanted to move with the relationship very fast, and I essentially said let's not go this fast. She ended up taking that as I was not interested, and she started dating another guy, much to many WTFs from me. I tried to woo her back because while we did have a lot of differences, we got along very well, and for once, I felt very happy and content to be with her. She always put a smile on my face. Unfortunately, she misinterpreted what I said, and my attempt to get her back failed as she was with another guy. I still would love to date her, and she is single, but at this point 4 months since we met, I think she is over me and only sees me as a friend (she did really like me from the start) Alas, I fell into the friend's zone with her, but I do often feel like making another attempt to tell her how I feel....
ANYWAY, this was the girl that was coming to take me out to lunch, and she came and as always I was super happy to see her. We went to a mall foodcourt for lunch, but her friends were running late to the mall so it was just me and her. Normally I would hate going to a mall on a busy day, but like I said, when I am with this girl, nothing else matters. We had an awesome lunch, but then she said she was going to take me home. I said I don't mind shopping with you, but she told me that I most definitely did not want to go shopping with her and her friends, since they will shop until the mall closes (about 8 hours) and the last guy they took shopping with them never talks to them anymore because it was apparently such a traumatic experience. I said I really didn't mind as I didn't have any plans till later, but she said that I should just her and her friends do their girl things. I said alright and she took me home. We talked in her car for about 45 minutes though before I finally left, but once she left and I was back in my apartment, this was where several emotions began to overwhelm me.
I started getting really sad that I didn't go shopping with her, and I wanted to back out with her so bad. This is pretty big coming from a homebody like me, but I couldn't care what she did. I was happy and had fun around her, and it made places I dreaded going actually really enjoyable. For the longest time, my sole excuse for not going out was either I had no one to go with, or that I would not enjoy myself. But it started to dawn on me that I did not enjoy myself because of the place persay, but more so because of the people I was with. I needed more people that I truly enjoyed hanging out with. That's when I got hit with the very strong wake up call and rush of emotions.
For one, I still was very much missing the girl and regretting that we never had a chance to date. I may or may not try to win her over again, because even if she was still into me, there are several things that would really make the relationship troublesome. That was not the revelation though. The revelation was that I realized I really had to go out more. I was wasting my life away by always staying home. I was stuck in a never ending trap. I was wishing for people to be good friends and go out with, but I never would go out to meet them. I have apparently been waiting for them to magically fall into my life. Some may happen that way though, but it really dawned on me that if you want something to happen, you have to go out and do it! You can't wait for it to come to you!
I have had similar feeling like this in the past, but this was the first time where it struck hard, and everything just seemed to make sense on what I had to do. I absolutely had to get out more. Sure I would have to sift through lot's of bad people, but eventually my efforts would pay off and I would meet people I truly would enjoy doing anything with, and I could finally fill in the empty void in my life that is my social life.
So that became my number one resolution for the New Year. Make an active effort to get out of my house as much as possible. Join more groups or organizations, take part in more work activities, take up more friend's offers to do stuff. I had a really good feeling about it, and I felt this was the start of something great. I felt this truly might be the year I find a girlfriend I think is the best person ever and she actually really likes me too. Find friends that become like family to me and share many fun times with. Have a very fun and busy social life and experiencing good things. I started feeling really pumped up for 2011!
So yea, New Year resolutions. I have many this year, but due to my new revelation, they surprisingly are all intertwined. One success will lead to the next success. I might as well discuss how my 2010 resolutions went. Last year at this time, I also made a bunch of resolutions and I am happy to say that I accomplished around half of them. Here were my goals from last year:
- Do awesome in school
- Get a job in my field
- Get a girlfriend
- Improve social life tremendously/go out more
- Try new things I never did before
- Start working out hard and get back in awesome shape.
There were some smaller ones too, but these were the big ones and I accomplished quite a few. I did excellent in school, being in the top 3 of my class. I got a paying job while I was in school yet. I tried several new things I had wanted to do, like going to a club, smoking weed, and drinking socially, among other things. I did improve a little socially, at least in the regards of becoming way less shy, and actually breaking the ice with people. Unfortunately, I only made it halfway through the battle, and while I ended up becoming much better socially, I still was too much of a homebody and would go out with all the new people I was meeting! The girlfriend thing was also a failed one. I did start having a little success with dating late in the year, but most of the year it was epic fails. I have a good feeling about this year though. The gym was also another failed one. While in Arizona I mostly just did half ass workouts. I gained a very late freshman 15 as well. Late in the year after moving to Illinois, I got very serious about it for about 3 months and made excellent progress, gaining a ton of muscle actually, but ended up hurting my shoulder, and this in combination with the onset of cold weather put a spike in my working out plan for the last month. But that was 2010, what about 2011?
Many of my goals for 2011 are the same as the failed goals of 2010. This year though there is a bigger emphasis on getting my social life together, and after my revelation, it seems almost all my goals for this year are really closely interconnected. Let's take a look at them:
- Improve social life. go out as much as possible and meet lots of people.
- Get a girlfriend
- Hit the gym and get in great shape
- Do new things I always wanted to do
- Continue doing great at my job, and hopefully get promoted.
Other then the job goal, which to be honest, is one that I am the least worried about accomplishing, the other goals all seem to fall into one another. Get to the gym and get in good shape will give me more confidence to go out more. Going out more can have me meet people who I would enjoy going to the gym with. Both of these can help me find a girlfriend. The list really goes on and on. Like last year, let's take a look at my goals closer.
Improve Social Life:
This is the biggie. It really had dawned on me that I must absolutely get out more. There's really no two ways about it, and it's time to stop making excuses. I just got to get up, off my ass, and go do things. I think what really caused me to open my eyes was realizing the fact that I was just sitting around like a pussy waiting for everything to come to me. My job just didn't come to me. I spent tons of effort getting it, so why would good friends, love, a fun social schedule, and anything else just walk into my life. I don't want to be that guy. I want to be a go-getter. Go out and accomplish my goals and dreams. Therefore, no more excuses, this guy is going out more. /wallowing in self pity
Get Back in really Good Shape:
I used to be in excellent shape around age 18, even having a 4 pack of abs (damn bottom abs) and generally being pretty toned up. I was also an extreme health freak and at the gym four hours a day. Still though, exercising and being healthy is a big passion of mine, and I would love to get serious about it again. Plus, it just makes you feel good, confident, and is all around an overall life improver. I'm hoping to get over my shoulder injury, regain my excitement to work out, and make it happen!
Get a girlfriend:
I still will try online dating, but I realized that to get a girlfriend, I have to go along with my goal to be more social and get out more. I need to start going more to the places where my ideal women would be, like conventions, gaming clubs, libraries, etc. Not only do I have the chance to meet awesome women at these places, but I'll also meet people I can relate with, and partake in something I enjoy as well. Plus, who knows when I could run into the perfect girl. Going out more exponentially increases my chances of finding love, because like I said, it's not going to just walk int my life. I have to be the go-getter, and go out to get what I want. I have a good feeling about this year now. So maybe my blogs will get more interesting pretty soon.
Do New Things:
There's some very big things I would love to do this year. I want to go to some sort of geek convention. Comic, Anime, Cosplay, Gaming, anything. Honestly, I have really wanted to go to a convention since I was very little yet, and it is still one of my biggest dreams. It has only got bigger due to me regretfully skipping the Phoenix Comic Con. I also would love to take a vacation and actually GO SOMEWHERE, preferably a beach. I have not been on a real vacation for around 6 years now, and would really love to, and experience that crazy life (something like spring break craziness - throw me in it for one hell of an awkward experience. At least it would make one hell of a blog. ) I do doubt a little if I vacation will happen this year, and if it doesn't, I will not be upset, but it is something I've been gearing up to do now for a long time. A convention might not happen too due to my area not having many, but I swear if there is one in my area, I WILL GO.
There is not really anything else major I want to do that I can think of right now. Probably just lots of tiny things I would like to do, but there is one odd thing I want to do yet this year, and that is meet up with some CAGs. I constantly hear stories about CAG meetups, and CAGs becoming good friends, and I want to get in on this. Haha. It would require some planning, but I would love to meet other CAGs and make new friends. This site is easily one my favorite one, and the majority of people here are awesome.
Get a Job Promotion
The goal I am least worried about, it's still something I really want to achieve. Right now I work an assistant position. It is full time, but I work on temporary contracts which are really scary. Right now my goal is to kick ass there for the next 6 months, and hopefully make enough of an impact that losing me would be a huge loss to the company. Wish me luck!
So there you have it. My goals for the New Year. Wish me luck CAG, and I hope everyone had a good New Year themselves and good luck with all our goals as well! Thanks for reading!
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