Despite the many times I said I'm probably better off staying single and never having a girlfriend, there's no denying I feel VERY jealous of some people having a girlfriend and I don't. The biggest one that comes to my mind is when I see an Otaku guy hanging out with his Otaku girl. I'll discuss the situations I've seen in my blog.
Last Saturday, I drove back to Maryland (I miss that state and where I use to live more than anything right now). I went to Books A Million at the mall and noticed a bunch of people in the aisle. Two of them were guys who had a girl with them (both didn't exactly look horrible). In one case, both had on a video game/anime type t-shirt on. Both were checking out manga together having lots of laughs. I could tell they were Otaku based on how they were dressed, what they had with them (like anime/gaming stuff all over), both wore glasses, and other stuff. I was just in the aisle alone. Another couple (while they were not wearing gaming t-shirts, but had on other nerdy t-shirts) was doing the same thing, enjoying looking at manga, comparing prices online with their cell phones, etc. Heck, the guy sort of looked like me, dating an all right looking girl. Next I went to FYE. While looking at the anime section there, I saw the same thing (Otaku dating an Otaku). At Suncoast at another mall, saw the same thing again.
When I go to Anime Conventions, while the majority just go with friends, I've seen some couples go together where they cosplay together, go to panels together, and/or shop at the Dealers Room together. While I enjoy going to Anime Conventions with friends, I just wish I had a girl with me who was into it like me. But then again, if we had totally different anime liking, that could be a problem.
I'm a member of a local anime club in VA. I have seen a few Otakus who are married or have a girlfriend, who is into similar anime/games as them.
In many ways, I wish I had a girlfriend who was Otaku/Nerdy (into anime and video games like me, hopefully some similar ones) to spend time with. But at the same time, I've pretty much given up on that happening because I'm old, have weird issues that prevent me from ever having a girlfriend, and not too confident I can find that person. While my last girl was sort of into anime (she was big into games and comics thought), I was so glad we split up due to many issues I had with her (and she had issues with me). It's also hard for me to think about looking for this girl again because of having no idea where I'll be living in less than a year. I don't like the way things are going at my job so I plan to look again. Likely I'll return back to Maryland. If I can't, I may make a return back to the Midwest (Indiana, Illinois, or Ohio), or even relocate to San Diego, CA (I'm applying to a job out there since people I went to college with work there).
Is there something wrong for me wanting a girlfriend like this? I don't think a normal girl and I could get along unfortunately (because I'm weird, lol). Maybe I should save myself the energy and not look. I would be willing to make some changes with my life to make it work, such as maybe even sharing a drink with her if she wants.
Do people think I should keep looking or give up?