Just wanted to say that I apologize if this seems too philosophical/melodramatic for anyone. I really just needed to get some of this off my chest, heh. I'm not normally this serious about crap, but I wrote this because I just couldn't sleep tonight (been thinking about it, along with some other stuff). I may have exaggerated a bit on some stuff, heh, because honestly I'm not thinking straight right now (lack of sleep). But I enjoyed writing it.

I guess you have to find something in life that gives you more of a reason to live besides everyday activities & hobbies, ie a long-term job/girlfriend/wife/family?

As for the trying to find alone time, i haven't actually experienced college, but i hear that you really don't get a lot of alone time there. I feel like people are sometimes desperate just to be in a quiet room free from people for change, and with college, especially a roommate, apparently that doesn't happen too much.

Find something other than your hobbies that you enjoy doing.

Yeah, that's probably right. I just need to find something else.

And you're definitely right about not getting much alone time in college, heh. If you're roommate isn't too obnoxious, you'll get used to it though.

i dont think theres anything wrong with living life around your hobbies. It was once said one of the best ways to stay happy was by surrounding yourself with what you love, in this case, your hobbies.

As you may know if you've been reading my blogs, ive been having similiar problems, and i can feel your anguish on the thinking. There have been sleepless nights for me as well, just because i would be up thinking about everything. Trying to formulate some answer, but nothing ever made sense.

but honestly, and bear in mind im saying this because it seems im a lot like you, but i find nothing wrong living life around your hobbies. You got to do what you love, and you shouldnt care what people say. This has a lot to do with being introverted. Extroverted people are much more for going out, constantly trying new things, but in my experience as an introvert, as well as knowing other introverts, we find it much easier, and much more comfortable just settling with the same few things. We like order, we like consistency, we hate spontanity.

As for finding more of a meaning then that, i think your just trying to hold yourself up to unrealistic expectations. You will undoubtedly will find more interests as you progress through life, but its not like you have to be constantly trying new things and living on the edge. As for a career, you should try to focus on something that includes your hobbies. I mean, lets take anime, you have your givens like art, music, writing, production, but people tend to forget all the other jobs that can involve anime, like working at the business or financial end of an anime company.

Really, what it comes down to is this, i think life can feel lacking at times for all of us, but in the end, i dont think theres anything wrong with constantly focusing your life around your hobbies. I think its a beautiful thing even if its only a couple of things. I find it awesome when a person knows what they like, and embrace that, no matter what it is. Its better then the crapload of people that are bouncing all over the place, never doing the same thing twice.

One last thing to add though, i'm not sure how social you are, but i would work on becoming more social. Even if you dont like to go out and socialize too much, being a social being is important. For example, ill admit i don't like socializing. I would rather spend time home with a game, book, or go somewhere i like with a buddy or two. But when i do out, im very talkative. I think being a personable and amicible person is a very good attribute. Just start with simple stuff like saying hello and smiling to any people you meet walking or something. Its no harm done, it raises your confidence, and it makes you come off as a really friendly cool person

I am vengeance! I am the night! I AM BATMAN!

yeah, there is nothing wrong with living for your hobbies. American society will try and tell you otherwise, but living to work and pay bills is shit. I don't in care if I'm contributing to our way of life if I feel like crap doing so. In the end, if you don't do what you enjoy (which is what a hobby is), then you are just going to find your life shallow and meaningless.

grimace: thanks for the mini-blog there, heh. I see what you're saying. Maybe it's not so bad to have a life revolving around hobbies. You're right though, I'm not social. I definitely need to work on that.

IRHari: I am Legend. Yeah, that's all I could come up with.

Chronis: Maybe you're right. I just feel sort of empty at the moment. Who knows, maybe I'm just not seeing things right. Just living to to work sounds like it sucks though.

The fact that you look for something deeper in life is good. It will find you when you least expect it. And it will challenge you. Welcome it, grow, and learn from it. Don't be afraid to try new things either. I'm an introvert as well and love to think about things. While i do tend to stay in a routine, mixing things up every now and again is good, you might make some good friends doing so and you'll gain life experience along the way. But always stay true to yourself.

Thanks, Mitch. Recently I made a post in the forums saying that anime was getting stale. Really though, it's not just anime. My whole life's routine is getting stale.

For once, I actually think going back to school might not be such a bad thing, heh. I'm sure my mind will change once I'm there pulling all-nighters though, haha. I do have some pretty good friends there, at least.

wtf posted in the wrong blog entry. edited.