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It's been awhile.

lilboo — Sun, 09 Dec 2012 20:15:43 GMT

It's been since 2009 since I made a blog post here on CAG. Wow..

I *might* come back to posting more often. Maybe. We'll see. I just remember this place getting TOO big and it just became filled with way too many egos. Too much bickering about the silliest of things. The Nintendo Fanboys on here (at least, at the time) are just horrendous.

This is coming FROM a Nintendo Fanboy, too.

So let's see, what have I been up to since early 2009, my last blog post?

I've probably gained and lost about 700lbs. Gained some, would lose some. Gain back + more, then would lose it all and then some. Etc. Etc. Etc. That's fantastic, no?

On January 5, 2010 I woke up to a phone call that I ignored and then a few minutes later I woke up again to a voicemail. I didn't even look at who was calling, but I saw it was from my friend..who lived in Florida (I live in NJ)...we were very very close, but we kinda parted ways once she got married and had a little over dramatic life. Point is, her mom was calling me to tell me that they found her dead. She had MS and they said it was "from her MS meds". It wasn't. We were talking a few weeks prior, she was going through some really crappy time with this new guy she was seeing. He was abusive (verbally), a drug addict that ran her credit cards up to about $10,000, and just CLEARLY a piece of shit. I know her a bit TOO well... she had pride. She totally offed herself. I was (and still am) mad as hell, but I've gotten over it. I just hope that if there's SOME afterlife out there..that she's happy and content..

My life from that point on was HELLA boring and depressing. I spent most of 2010 to 2012 VERY depressed. Was unemployed for a while. I just sat at home, playing World of Warcraft and just getting FAAAAAAAAAAAT. Pizza therapy, I called it.

I was living with my boyfriend and on Saturdays we would go food shopping. He would notice that the last time I was outside, was LAST saturday when we went food shopping. It was that bad. I was also very unhappy with my relationship..

I did find work Jan of 2011 and im still there. It's just a job, it pays crappy but at least I'm working. I have "something to do" at least, which is nice when your life is FILLED of "doing nothing".

I have been playing WoW almost RELIGIOUSLY since I started early in 2009. Sometime in May 2012,I was SO annoyed and bored with my guild and practically everyone on my server. So I took an alt and I moved her to a new realm. (Proudmoore). I always head good things about there, so I figured, it's just an alt.. so why not? After playing for a few weeks, I felt comfortable bringing my main over to "start fresh". I had joined a guild that I found on my alt. On June 5th, after a raiding team was done raiding for the evening I messaged someone who appeared to be an officer. Just a question. Just wanting to know about future raid spots. That is it. I knew nothing of this person. Man, woman? old, young? HOT or FOUL? No clue.

We talked. We talked. We talked... we swapped facebooks.....
We talked...

We fell in love. Oh my god, did we ever.

Oh, I was still living with my BF... by this point, we were together for 6 1/2 years.. :cry:
It was nearly instant as we just had this chemistry together. I never felt so EXCITED to speak to someone before. To actually LISTEN to what the other person has to say...

Well, because I spent so much time with my "new" BF.. clearly my actual BF was suspicious so he went on my PC and read my FB messages. He questioned us (him and I)..and though I live in NJ and he lived in WI....I said "I know, it's hard..but I HAVE to try this". Say what? I am NOT good with change at all..but I was SO headstrong on trying this out.

About 6 weeks later, he took a vacation to Philly and we hung out for the week. He took a job interview while in vacation. Everything we knew about each other was as expected.....He took the job..and by end of August, he moved from WI to come live with me until the lease ran out. My ex decided to leave ON HIS OWN and he said he would still pay half the rent until the lease was over (November). We started to look for our own place a few weeks later and at the end of October, we found a beautiful quiet apartment in a very nice town in NJ.

I am not proud about how things happened. Things are awkward with my ex, but I don't hate him. He doesn't hate me. He knew VERY much that we were over for awhile...I guess someone had to initiate it..

I am also VERY concerned with how fast we moved into this. I mean, we STARTED talking beginning of June and we MOVED IN TOGETHER by middle/end August. It's so crazy.. but we talked about it, a lot. We tried to speak about our feelings, we tried to be LOGICAL and not just be emotional. It's been working out extremely well so far. I feel connected with someone. I don't feel like I have a "boyfriend". I actually have a partner. Someone that I can rely on, and count on.

It's been nice to BE happy. I have just had this spark for life lately and it feels nice. I'm not a great cook/baker, but lately I have been just going crazy printing recipes out a few times a week and just cooking us up a big meal. Yeah, he made a woman outta me.. but I can't complain. I actually love it, lol

That's pretty much it. I haven't really talked about this situation with many people. Some people thought very negatively of me because I left my ex for someone else. Why is trying to be happy, so wrong? Whatever, I guess.

In the end, all that matters is that I'M happy. Right?

Ugh

lilboo — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 04:03:54 GMT

Have you ever been on edge for awhile........for no reason?
You go through a phase where you are just easily annoyed with people for very little reason?
How about a phase where you actually feel better than others?

I have no idea. I have been feelin' extra smug lately. Maybe deep down inside I am better than some of the people I come across. (Note: I DO work in Philly. Lots of characters there).

I am bothered by this because I am not a smug person. I am not rich. I really don't consider myself better then anyone else. (Except for the people who live in my apartment complex. I actually pay my rent with REAL money that I got for my job.. not tax payer money .. :roll: )

But seriously now, here's my deal. I lost ~9lbs last month. I did the "eat like a real person, and move around" diet. Ya know, eat fruits and vegetables and workout. It's amazing. Anyway I have been really good with what I eat. I haven't had any (or very little) refined sugar. I've also been consuming less sat. fat. Ontop of this, I've been reading the labels. Staying away from high fructose corn syrup and partially hydrogenated ____ oils.

Because of this, people I know are actually calling me smug. Snobby.
Why is this?
I don't look at something and go "YYYYYYYYYYYYUUUCCCK! Get this AWAY!". It's pretty much a "..oh no, I'm trying not to eat that kind of stuff."

The fuck?
So, why are people who decide to eat along the lines of HEALTHY are considered snobby/smug?

Please inform me.

This generation of gaming CLEARLY sucks ass!

lilboo — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 11:42:03 GMT

What the hell?

I have all 3 systems. I got a 360 for my birthday back in 2006. I was all excited to open it up and plug it in and play...but...yeah. It CAME to me broken. So I exchanged for one the very next day.

This previous summer, I finally got the red ring of death. Though, it's pretty fucked up that I'm "lucky" that it lasted from Sept 2006-July 2008. When it came back, it was a different model...and it's been really, really quiet. No problems YET.

I got just a PS3 for Christmas. Luckily no hardware problems yet..but why does the PSN keep logging out? I was wireless, and now I'm wired. It STILL drops out. I have no problems with my internet connection on my PC, Wii, or 360..so..WTF? Though, it hasn't even been a month so I can't complain too much.

I got my Wii on launch day and waited in line like a boob for about 12 hours. I was so happy. Jump to 2 years later and that feeling surely changed. My Wii has been loud when there are discs in there..I thought "meh"...and today, it just won't read any discs. I am very, very reluctant to send this in. Why? Well, it costs $75 to fix this piece of shit. Why would gaming systems come with like a ONE year warranty?

So.. yeah. Why does this shit suck so much?
:lol: @ being angry at 6:30 in the morning. This is what I get for getting and wanting to play My Fitness Coach..:lol:

*Cues in TMK and Nintendo Fanboys*

I will never sleep again.

lilboo — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 17:06:54 GMT

As much as this dream has potentially ruined sleep for me for at least 5-10 years, I have to say it was nice having SOME kind of weird dream. Ok, nightmare. I haven't had one of these crazy dreams in a long time.

So I'm walking by Gary Schandling's house and I'm trying to avoid him. He comes out, sees me, and runs towards me. "Tom, wait up!" he yells and I walk faster.

Somehow, I reach a dead end and he's behind me. I immediately drop to the floor and I start covering up my face and scream "Please go away! No no no!" and he says "Hey, listen.. I want to apologize for molesting you when you were little." I start kicking him and screaming..until he grabs my foot, and pulls by pants down and looks at my ass and says

:cold:
(That's how I woke up)

I will never sleep again. :(

Breakthrough: I am not actaully attacted to men.

lilboo — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 05:59:17 GMT

Earlier today, me and my BF went to Gamestop to get jerked over by the fat over 40 virgin manager who did not understand the current promotion about "Trading in 2 Wii games to SAVE $30 off certain Wii games". :roll:

We left with me pissed off and annoyed already, so that is a good sign of things to come.

We get into the car and I'm explaining to my BF about what the promotion should be. (How it's advertised). In like a minute, some big fat ugly housewife is knocking at the window. We roll the window town, and that pudding of a woman says "Excuse me! You JUST hit me car with your DOOR!

My reaction is "...."
He says "..Uhh"

And she's standing there babbling saying YOU HIT MY CAR. I say "Was there any damage?" and the sea cow gets OFFENDED by this. How?!

She barks: "IT DOESN'T MATTER! YOUR DOOR HIT MY ---"

It was really getting unbearable so I had to cut the hippo off and said "Roll up that fuckin window. Fuck her. FUCK YOU! LOSE WEIGHT! FUCK YOU! and proceeded to spit out the window at her. Tearfully, it missed. :(

The point is: When people get HYPE over NOTHING the BEST thing to do is overreact like they do...a thousand times better. (Especially if they are fat housewives who do not deserve any respect at all.)

Listen. If you ever hit a car with your door, you KNOW when you hit hard. There's a "NOISE" involved. CLEARLY, one of us would have heard this if it was ACTUALLY hitting the car hard enough to matter--EVEN if there wasn't damage. It was tapped.

Basically, all she wanted was to be acknowledged. She wanted us to KNOW that he hit the car and wanted an apology. Most likely her husband left her OR hasn't touched, fucked, or even fingered in months; possibly years and was seeking some kind of emotional bond from a man.

As we were driving home we were cracking up over the angry walrus. He was like "Ya know, I really don't think your gay because you like guys. I really, truthfully, believe you just absolutely HATE women.

He might be onto something. :-k

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For the record: I don't really hate women. I state this because I know some people who are SOOO macho and will act like an internet pussy over this story and get mad. This is just a story that happened today since that bowl of jello for a lady really acted like a total ass--I felt the need to do the same in return.

I will continue to enjoy penis.

The human body is absolutely AMAZING

lilboo — Tue, 30 Dec 2008 00:24:24 GMT

T.M.I. ALERT
(Too Much Information)

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

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So, I have been feeling awful lately. I think it's just a cold, but it's one of those colds that make you feel all kinds of bad. Ya know, shitty. It seems like I am getting better, so, hooray!

A few minutes ago, I was suffering from a few things.
~A MASSIVE HEADACHE (possibly migraine?)
~TERRIBLE CONGESTION. ::attempts to sniff, but fails::
~STOMACH PAINS. Weird kinds, not so much "ZOMG POOOOOP!"
~...Labido

So, I'm just laying on the couch.
And yeah.
I went there.

So what?

LEMME TELL YOU THIS.
I just had the most FOUL orgasm of my life. Not only did I probably make the most scariest face I can imagine, but I totally farted and sneezed and at the same time.

After I clean myself up, I realize a few things:
"My headache?! It's... not that bad?!"
"OMG! I can.. breathe through my nose. OMG MY NEIGHBORES ARE COOKING FISH, PUKE"
"...Oh SHIT, I didn't pull my black shirt up high enough! #-o"

Moral of the Story: Masturbating will solve almost every problem. Just do not wear a black shirt. If you do, take it off or make sure you lift it up higher! #-o

I got a PS3 for Christmas and lemme tell you this..

lilboo — Mon, 29 Dec 2008 15:47:46 GMT

I am really heartin' the PS3

We bought it simply because we really had "nothing else" to buy for each other this year. We figure we got an HDTV last year for our 360, why not have a Blu-Ray player that plays games? ;)

Since I've had my 360 for over 2 years, I have most of their exclusives AND the third party games. Because of this, I never saw any reason to own a PS3.

Oh, besides a PSP this is my first Playstation console..:oops:

Anyway, we of course didn't get this without any games. We picked up Little Big Planet, Uncharted, and Heavenly Sword. Oh, and another Dual Shock 3. (CAG Fact: We ended up getting all of this for around $480ish). The 3 games so far are..well..pretty awesome. I downloaded 2 titles: Lumines Supernova and Mortal Kombat II.. :drool: <3 MK II

So, for less then a week of playing with this shiny (literally) new machine, here's what I heart about it.
-It's surprisingly not as heavy as it looks. I know this doesn't matter, but it was a nice surprise.
-You don't HEAR the games playing. My 360 used to make a ton of noise and my Wii currently sounds like a lawnmower.
-The interface, where sometimes confusing, is pretty slick. The free themes are pretty good too. It's nice to see FREE themes that aren't all sponsored by Dr Pepper or Gamestop..:roll:
-PSN works just fine. XBL is better, and it SHOULD be better since you pay (I haven't paid a full $50..) $50 a year for it. For free, it works well. It works fine. It gets the job done.

Now, some bad.
-The shiny finish is a bit annoying. I'm not going to moan and bitch about it, but if I had a choice I WOULDN'T choose this look. Again, it's not a big deal to me. Just superficial shit.
-I really dislike that you download games/demos and have to install them. :-s What is up with that? It just makes it more time consuming then anything.
-WHY AREN'T THERE DEMOS FOR ALL PSN GAMES? This "in-between" shit is stupid. The Wii doesn't have demos because there's no room, and the XBLA has demos for EVERYTHING. Why does PSN have certain demos? There's a few games I'd love to try..but..for $10-$15...I can't risk it.
-Maybe it's me but I seem to get disconnected from PSN a lot. I never have connection problems with my PC, Wii, 360 or DS....

That's pretty much it.
I understand that some people feel that having a 360/PS3 is kinda stupid and you should ONLY have 1 or the other (..usually a 360). I understand the library is larger for the 360, and XBL is executed really well..but that doesn't mean the PS3 library is AWFUL and the PSN doesn't work.

I def will see myself buying certain genres on my PS3 now. Playing MK II on PS3 is much more enjoyable than UMK3 on XBLA. The controller is just so much better. It makes me really regret getting SSFTIIRHD on 360, :(

I'll give it more time. I hope I don't end up neglecting my 360 entirely now.. :lol:

Is anyone in the Christmas Spirit....at ALL?

lilboo — Fri, 12 Dec 2008 02:37:44 GMT

:wave:

Ya know, for the last few years I've really tried to get excited for Christmas. I understand once you find out the truth about Mr. Claus, Christmas loses that special charm. It's not that "OMG I was SOO good this year!! I get PRESENTS! :bouncy:"..It was the..excitement? The anticipation of Christmas coming.

I just don't get it anymore. Yeah, we have our apartment decorated and I really like our tree...but, it never feels like Christmas anymore. Maybe it's because everything has gotten so God damn politically correct that you rarely even hear "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" anymore..it's all about "HAPPY HOLIDAYS!".. :roll:

Remember back in the day, commercials would be just flooded with Christmas stuff! Not "SHOP AT TARGET THIS WEEK FOR HOLIDAY SALEZZZ!!"..but, just random commercials about actual products..they would have snow, and white people bundled up (:lol:), it'd be about MERRY CHRISTMAS! :whee:

I also noticed that it doesn't seem like THAT many people decorate anymore? Certainly I see tons of people in my area that do decorate, but it seems like when I was younger..there were decorations everywhere. Maybe it seemed like it. Who knows. I also lived in Philly when I was a child, I live in NJ now..so maybe I live around too many jews or some shit like that.

Anyone else feel that Christmas really is just another day anymore? :(

Animal Crossing: City Folk - The Rant

lilboo — Wed, 03 Dec 2008 18:46:09 GMT

I've had Animal Crossing: City Folk since it came out a few weeks back on Nov 15th and have probably already put too many hours into it.

I have 2 things I'd like to say about this game: I am very disappointed, and yet, I love this game so much.

How could this be? This does not make sense?! Well, it doesn't make sense and that's because I probably have an untreated brain tumor at the moment.

The Good
It's Animal Crossing. It's the same style and gameplay that was introduced in the Gamecube version and continued on in Wild World for the DS. The gameplay and concept of it remains the same and that's a good thing!

There seems to be a lot of things to collect. That's also a good thing! It def keeps you busy and always playing! We WANT to always play, right? If not, what's the point in liking this kind of game?

If I'm not mistaken, I believe this is the first time there's some kind of festival for Easter in this game.

Some new characters; travelers at least. I am not too sure on how many new villagers are in this game.

All characters (human) now can choose their house, which is spread out all over the map and not tied down to the center square anymore.

Taking the (school) bus to the City is new, and so is the City 8-). There's not much here..but, it's new and you'll always have access to stuff from Crazy Redd, Gracie and you can visit that crook Katrina whenever. Wendell, Saraha, Blanca, and Joan are still in the game. In fact, everyone that's BEEN in Animal Crossing returns. That's good, TOO!

Lastly, the WiFi aspect of the game is where it shines. Going to someone else's town and meeting up with 3 other people can be hilarious to say the least. Sure, you may not be able to DO much..[but, it's what you make of it.

The Bad
It's the same game. There is not a lot new added to this game at all. There's a few new villagers, some new events, items, blah blah blah..but the feel of it is almost way too familiar. It should feel like a fresh new game, even if it's the third installment of something.

Going to the City, well, sucks. It sucks because there's really not much to do at all. Gracie's store is a bunch of high end stuff that you can't afford until later in the game, Katrina is only interesting like.. once a month..Crazy Redd only restocks once a week..getting a new hairstyle is fun and laughable like 3 times, and even THAT isn't new since it's the same exact thing from the DS with the same exact hairstyles....So, what else is there in the City? I'll admit, the auction house seems interesting (It's currently not time to bid yet in my town..) and the HRA location.. is seemingly pointless IMO. For this game to be subtitled "City Folk" it really is underwhelming.

Why aren't there new fruits? This is nit picking, but is it really? Why can't they have given us more options to get money. We still pick exotic fruit, fish, and catch bugs. I am not sure if there are more/new bugs/fish in this game..but if so, there aren't many. There's still the daily money rock, pitfalls, fossils, and gyroids. Again, NOTHING new.

Why can't we have the island back?
Why only 32 spots for friend codes?
Why can you only save one picture at a time, and if you want to keep it you must transfer it to an SD card. That's fine, but why one at a time? Why not be able to have an album and THEN transfer photos to the SD card?

This game just feels lazy, and it's idiots like me who go out and buy it anyway :lol:. I fell right into their trap and I hate it.

But it's Animal Crossing.. and I love it. :(

Mega Man 9 for WiiWare saddens me.

lilboo — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 17:37:06 GMT

Oh Mega Man, you so handsome!

When Mega Man 9 was a WiiWare exclusive for about 7 minutes, it was pretty exciting for Wii owners. It was like.. WOW, we are getting a REAL game that non-wii owners may be jealous of! What a FIRST! But then, Capcom DID do the right thing and declared Mega Man 9 will be downloadable on all 3 consoles.

This is not what bothers me. I think that it's smart to do that.

What bothers me is that, I don't think people (whom are multi-console owners) will download it on the Wii. Now this is NOT a "OMG SUPPORT THE Wii" blog post. Not at all. In fact, I have started to understand some of the hate the Wii gets..but that's a whole other blog one day.

This is an 8 bit game, so this game is going to look exactly the same on all 3 consoles..despite what ANY fanboy is going to say, but you know what? The WiiWare version of this game IS indeed going to be the superior version and I don't think anyone will recognize it. Why? The controls. Not only is Mega Man 9 coming out as an 8 bit game that's 100% fan service, but using the Wii remote as an NES style controller IS what's going to be icing on the cake. Sure, the 360 version will have achievements..and I am not sure if the PSN version will have trophies, but this game is going to feel awkward as all hell playing with the D-Pad on the 360 controller. I don't own a PS3 so I can't comment on that.

So what do you think? If you are a multi-console owner who is indeed getting Mega Man 9, what version will you be picking up and why? I especially want to know why you would choose another version over the Wii version. Are achievements more important then having good, classic controls? Or will the controls be the deciding factor for you?

MMMM <3 OCD Attacks!!

lilboo — Fri, 29 Aug 2008 02:38:55 GMT

I haven't had one of these in a minute!
I was sitting in the living and I had an OCD attack; I immediately demanded my BF to NOT sit back down and to help me rearrange the living room... and so we did..:lol:

Man, sometimes bein fucked in the head is pretty awesome 8-)

Weekend wrap up. :-B

lilboo — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 17:42:51 GMT

This post is basically because I am at work and I am very bored. :-B <-- Meth teeth

Anyway, remember the post I made on..Friday? It was a blog entry I made asking if others set game goals for when they have some free time available to play games. I mentioned that I usually make them for the weekend for some of my spare time since I have no work or any obligations to attend to 8-)

This weekend I was playing 3 games and set 3 different goals:
1) To 200/200 Fable II Pub Games
2) Reach at least level 20 in Soul Calibur IV
3) Beat Mega Man 1

I did it! :whee:
I did 200/200 Pub Games Saturday afternoon thanks to luck since that's pretty much all you need to do to get all the achievements.
It took a while, but I eventually got to level 20 online in SCIV. :bomb: I started at level 16 and it took awhile to get to level 20 since people tend to use the same 3 people and use the same 2 moves with them. :wall:
I also actually did more then that; I ended up getting the achievement where your supposed to move for 10000 meters. I got the achievement for buying all art illustrations and the achievement for buying all weapons for 5 characters. I think I got another one, but I don't remember. ::it doesn't matter::

THEN I decided to play Mega Man thanks to the $5.55 :gc: Mega Man Anniversary I snagged at GameStop What fun. Dr Wily's castle was a bitch..but..I ended up beatin that whore bag 8-)

I had so much fun I actually started playing Mega Man 2! :whee:
I have most of those boss' done as I only have 2 more boss' + Dr Wily left!

In other news I just picked up :psp:Mega Man Powered Up for $9.74 thanks to that Gamestop coupon.

Consider me excited.

A question for Europe.

lilboo — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 23:30:42 GMT

Yesterday, Europeans laughed at the rest the of (Nintend) world as their Virtual Console update had one of the few games we all have been waiting for: Super Mario RPG.

Japan got it first in June, but they are Japan and they get everything first. We North Americans could have sworn we were better then Europeans, and thus, pretty much KNEW we would get this game before they did.

We were wrong.

So the 'peans are having a good time this weekend playing this game and laughing at the (fat) Americans.

That's fine, Euorpe, but I have a question for you all in regards to this game.

Can you take your physical copy of Mario RPG.....and scissor with it?

Oh that's right. You NEVER had the game before. [-(

/bitter

Do you set game goals?

lilboo — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:39:08 GMT

After a long ass week of work and having limited gaming time, there's nothing like the weekend 8-) (Or whenever your days off from work/school are).

During my weekend, I try to plan other activities *just* so I didn't sit in all weekend and play video games :lol: (Take notes, Mana!) but I tend to try and make goals? Nothing major, but knowing I have more free time to sit and play longer I like to try and get a few things accomplished, especially when you have a big ass back log. :wall:

This weekend I tend on BEATING Mega Man 1. I've actually beaten all the boss' except for Ice Man because his level is an asshole, so I just have to beat him and beat Wiley and I'll be set. I'll probably start Mega Man 2. BTW, I picked up Mega Man Anniversary thing for $5.55 at Gamestop :bouncy:

I also would like to work on, or actually accomplish, getting all 200/200 in Pube Games. Seems like a pretty easy game to get 200/200, it just takes some time & patience. I would also like to get closer to Level 20 Online in Soul Calibur 4. I think I'm level 14 right now, so I'm not too far off.

That's pretty much it for me. I'm actually working over time tomorrow, :cry: 8am-1pm so it won't interfere too much in my dad. Plus my BF works this weekend, both days, 12pm-9pm so I'll have all day to do shit 8-)

What about you? Do you set these goals/accomplishments when you have a day or two to game?

Why money makes me wet and drives me insane.

lilboo — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 14:10:32 GMT

Though, I like to think that everyone has the same general opinion on money. We all love it and we all secretly (and not so secretly) get boners over it, but at the same time, we are driven to madness because of it.

I have become really weird and obsessed with money like all of a sudden. Now I've always been a diva and wanted nice things. Posting on a GAME FORUM, I know I am not alone and there are many of us whom own HDTVs, several current gaming systems, possibly more then 1 MP3 players (I have 2 iPods and a Zune--Why?) as well as new desktop PCs, laptops, macs, ETC ETC ETC. There's nothing wrong with that, but that all takes money (or asking someone your blowin' to buy it for you)

ANYWAY, sometimes I just feel so dirt ass poor. We aren't poor. We pay our rent, our bills, and always have food in the apartment (and enough for when I feel like buying lunch during the week if I choose). But, there never seems to be enough extra.. and when there IS, it's like.. it disappears randomly.

We just finally become adults and I opened up a Savings Account the other day. Currently, I have it set that every Friday $30 will be deposited in there. Over a year that's $1560 (not including interest). $1500 isn't a lot, but $1500 in general is something awesome to have....for when you NEED it. Hell, even when you *WANT* it.

The point of me posting this, is because I'm PISSED at myself big time.
WHY didn't I save before? WHY? What was SO hard about doing this BEFORE?
I mean, I've been working since I was 14. I am now 23, 24 next month. I had my first REAL job when I was 16 working at a supermarket. I was making $6.25 an hour and I was working 20-25 hours a week. Clearly, I wasn't bringing home anything. It was to work and try to teach me the value of a $1

I worked, but clearly I never learned what this dollar meant.

Looking back, why didn't I put $20..hell, $10-$15 away each week? $15 is NOTHING and even though my checks during those days were not big.. $10-$15 once a week was VERY easily manageable.

Why am I bringing this up?
Let's say I did this. Let's say I did put $15 a week ever since I started this job at 16 years old. Let's say all these years through my jobs, I kept it at JUST $15 a week.Not including any interest, I would have $5460 just sitting here right now for me. $5400 isn't really a lot, but having that extra $5,400 sitting with me right now would have been NICE. Maybe we could have afforded a bigger and better place? Maybe I could have an HDTV sooner then I did? Is it really about the 'what could have I had'? I think I could live easier knowing "Oh I have $5400 waiting for me JUST in case!"

Ugh.
I just wish I knew what I did with all of this money. I'm kinda glad I'm just now growing up at 23, versus going through this when I'm like.. 40. I know some people whom are in their late 20s and well into their 30s and they don't seem to quite "get it" yet.

I guess better now then never?