[quote name='x0thedeadzone0x']sailorchrono...
by no means am I a "respected member of the CAG community" though people do certainly know me around here.
And I'm younger then you, I'm only 14 years old, though I am pretty mature for my age (believe me or not! I don't care what some of your opinions are because it's true!) once you actually get to know me in real life. Suicidal thoughts occur in every teenager's mind. The source is insecurity, low self-confidence and self-esteem, or that you're being emotionally put down, or physically abused. If those are the case, it may be better to run away, or to live with someone who won't upset you, so you can live a happy life instead of ending life. It's so precious, and there must be so many things that you want to do whether you believe it or not. Maybe you have bad family problems. You need to tough it out, because right now I am going through unbelievably difficult family problems and I've decided I want to live with my dad, but my mother would rather put me through HELL then be magnanimous and say, OK, You can live with your father if you want to. She has a few problems which I'd rather not get into, but if you can relate, then that's good. Really, you're determined and judged by how strong and tough you are by the hardest thing you've ever done in your life. If you ran 8 miles, that's a lot more impressive then running 2. If you played a difficult song on an instrument (piano for me) which took you months and months to learn and master, that's more impressive then saying that you play piano. You have to toughen up, because teenagers are at the hardest stages in their life, and if you can make it through this, you can make it through anything. It will only get better, you just need to find a way to get through it so you don't go ending up killing yourself. Suicide is not the answer, though if you really think it is, I suggest you get help at some kind of clinic, and trust me, someone there will definitely care and put your life back on track so that you can be happy.
And just because I'm hyper sometimes and I tend to use "smileys" on the boards doesn't mean you have to talk to me condescendingly like I'm an immature 10 year old girl, because I'm not.[/quote]
Good show, deadzone. It looks like you actually are more mature than people on the board have been giving you credit for. That's quite a level headed and healthy view on the subject, and actually shows that you are drawing on wisdom from beyond your years from somewhere.