PsovazHunter
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I used to smoke pot casually, like twice a week or so. This was a couple months back. I did it maybe a dozen times, maybe a little more. Then, one day, I decided to try smoking out of a bong for the first time. The little bowl that sticks in is supposed to be pulled out when you inhale the smoke, and I forgot to do so, so I pretty much burned my throat and coughed a shitload.
I got way more high than usual, and it resulted in a panic attack. Prior to this, I had never had one before. So, it lasted 15-20 minutes, then I was continuously shaking from fear for about an hour or so. After that, I thought it was over.
Roughly a week after it happened, I was sitting in Graphic Design in school, and I got a feeling of dread. I asked to go to the bathroom and pretty much waited it out in there, and let the panic attack pass. It happened every so often for a while (maybe a month or so). I haven't smoked since the first panic attack.
After this month or so of it, it passed when I had forgotten about it and hadn't seen anyone smoke pot right in front of me. Well, yesterday, the same kid I was with when it happened smoked outside of his car, I was there, however I didn't smoke. We went to an event at our school, and then the feeling of dread happened. Now, I just feel really paranoid and anxious for no reason. It kinda feels like I'm losing control. I'm pretty much back at square one.
My question to you all is:
What the hell is wrong with me? I can't really explain the situation to my parents since it involves smoking pot and I'm only 16, so going to the doctor's alone and hiding it from them, etc. is kinda out of the picture.
EDIT: I don't want to take meds, as I've heard succumbing to meds is really a bad choice.
I got way more high than usual, and it resulted in a panic attack. Prior to this, I had never had one before. So, it lasted 15-20 minutes, then I was continuously shaking from fear for about an hour or so. After that, I thought it was over.
Roughly a week after it happened, I was sitting in Graphic Design in school, and I got a feeling of dread. I asked to go to the bathroom and pretty much waited it out in there, and let the panic attack pass. It happened every so often for a while (maybe a month or so). I haven't smoked since the first panic attack.
After this month or so of it, it passed when I had forgotten about it and hadn't seen anyone smoke pot right in front of me. Well, yesterday, the same kid I was with when it happened smoked outside of his car, I was there, however I didn't smoke. We went to an event at our school, and then the feeling of dread happened. Now, I just feel really paranoid and anxious for no reason. It kinda feels like I'm losing control. I'm pretty much back at square one.
My question to you all is:
What the hell is wrong with me? I can't really explain the situation to my parents since it involves smoking pot and I'm only 16, so going to the doctor's alone and hiding it from them, etc. is kinda out of the picture.
EDIT: I don't want to take meds, as I've heard succumbing to meds is really a bad choice.