You should've quit before you started, but now you're all fraught and distressed, ready to give handjobs to strangers on the street corner, for cards. Do you know where this road leads? Nowhere or death. Whichever comes first... while you're giving handjobs. It's time to turn it all around and collect something worthwhile, like $2 bills or 8 track tapes. Don't throw your life away because it just might/maybe/doubtful, but possibly be worth living or, at least, donate your body to science before you decide to leave it in ruin.