please, if you can consider helping.......i have had one hell of a life--i was drowned by a life guard when i was 12 years old and spent more than ten minutes on the bottom of a pool with a water filled body before being rescued. My father told me i deserved to be drowned. On top of that traumatic, life changing event, i was also molested by women four times before i was 10 years old. On top of that, my father, was verbally, emotionally and physically abusive; he told me i deserved to be drowned, i used to go to school with bruises...i was that kid....i just need a break....a helping hand, a better day......being here with my ex is torture for both of us....