There's a lot to explain, and I need to dwell on it s'more.
Summarized: A girl who is crazy about me wanted to suck my dick, and I cock blocked myself with my iron will -- for numerous reasons. (I don't want to date her, and everything that stems from there. I'm too nice of a guy, and quite possibly an idiot.)
That was just last night / this morning, and it was absolute brutality. My two best friends were there, and I felt kind of emasculated, what with turning down a blowjob.
Like I said, I have to sit on everything that happened and just let it incubate.
As for gaydio:
I'm not a DJ.
I do more of the behind the scenes stuff, part-time.
Record the news and weather on the weekend, soundboard live sports events and shit like that.
I have no interest in radio -- as a medium or a career. Hence, I did not go to Specks-Howard.
(Drawing and video are my expertise.)