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costume quest came out like the 2nd week of october for ps3/360.
like i said, it all works together to form a perfect storm. the hypokalemia causes nerve pain (feels like i'm being shocked in any given area at any given time) & irregular heartbeat (which i psych myself into thinking its worse than it probably is). it's too much too explain here, but the hypochondria is more than just playing on my current medical problems, if my left arm hurts (from carrying in groceries, for example) i immediately think i'm having a heart problem & can't think about reasonable explanations. it all stems from anything that makes my heart beat fast. it beats very irregularly & it feels like it's pounding out of my chest, but anxiety/panic attacks is what makes it intolerable. playing horror games, or any game that gets me too excited, triggers the fast/hard irregular heartbeat, then i can't focus on the game AT ALL. i take meds for all (except hypochondria), but it keeps me on a normal level if i don't subject my self to extreme circumstances (things that tip the scale toward anxiety/irregular heartbeat - like caffeine, horror movies, games, etc). i may be able to over time, but i have several other (legitimate) medical problems that contribute to the hypochondria & anxiety, so it sucks to be me. my anxiety med is just enough for a normal day, but if i had unlimited supply, i could ignore all the other problems and play whatever i wanted. i'm gonna try again with Dead Space 2 since alot of the anxiety & symptoms from hypokalemia come from the times i've passed out standing up, came to & thought i was dying (i fell flat on my weights and it knocked the wind out so i couldn't breathe). just being off balance triggers severe anxiety (because of those traumatic experiences). since it's getting alot more manageable, i'm going to give it another try.
anyway, sorry so much useless info, but it's really hard to explain (even to the doctors i have to see). my doctors understand and usually help me to describe the feelings, because i can't think of words to describe the terror i feel in many instances.