Saucy Jack returns... for one final post.
I've finally been feeling well enough to update everyone on my status. I just wish I had been able to sooner, but that wasn't an option.
It seems like forever since I've been on CAG. It looks like it has grown larger, yet stayed the same. Cheapy, if you are reading this, I'm happy to see that your baby is still growing and going strong.
I contacted Scorch yesterday because I was feeling a little better than usual, and something told me to do it. So I e-mailed him and gave him a small update on myself, and told him that I was sorry for leaving CAG without notice. I also asked him not to talk about me here, and only to pass along certain information to those who asked him about me.
Scorch told me that I had been asked about constantly, and was greatly missed. I had no idea that I would be missed, and upon seeing the links he sent me, I was hurt that I left so many people in the dark about me.
I haven't been doing too well, in any form, as you can guess, and I thought it would be best those many months ago if I just left quietly. CAG has never been a good place to say goodbye. I didn't think of myself as anyone special and I didn't think that I warranted a thread or any kind of post to say goodbye. I just expected any goodbye to be met with the classic responses you all know and love:
"Who are you, again?"
"It's just a messageboard. Get a
ing life."
"Good riddance. I never liked you."
Well, seeing that there were some people out there who cared enough to wonder about me, I figure that they deserve a proper goodbye... one that I should have done a long time ago.
Scorch told me that some of you noticed the message I left underneath my username, which I have since changed.. I will explain that. As I said, I haven't been doing well, and I figured that the message would become truth. There's a good chance it still will. I hoped that by leaving quietly, I wouldn't be noticed. If someone did notice, I hoped that they would see the message and just say, "Oh. He's gone," and that would be it.
I just didn't think it would be proper if I were to continue being a member here, and one day I would be gone from this world and leave everyone hanging.
I'm sorry if I sound confusing; it's really tough to put my feelings into words.
Anyway, the purpose of this message is to say goodbye properly, as I should have done a long time ago. I don't know what your opinions were of me, but I know that there were many of you in the wrestling topics that I could and would proudly call and consider friends. I never felt like I fit in with the typical crowd here at CAG; I suppose I didn't share the sense of humor that many members have. You know, the sarcasm, "jabbing," and negatively charged (even though it was all in fun) humor that you regularly found in threads. Even when I tried to make jokes like that, it never felt right. So, pretty much, the wrestling topics were the place I called home here at CAG. It was fun to hang out and talk about wrestling with great people, and I thank all of you for that.
I will try to wrap up this message quickly. I don't think I will ever return to CAG, for some of the reasons I wrote about above. Other than to hang out in the wrestling thread, I have no real reason (and many times not the life and energy in me) for visiting anymore.
God blessed me with a few gifts, and one of them was to realize when I have met a great human being. Those of you in here that I considered friends (and I hope you knew that) are great human beings. I know that your futures are bright and just waiting for you to do something wonderful in the world, if you haven't done so already. I hope that all of you are doing well and are happy.
So, I will now leave this thread and the community of CAG. Sorry it took long, but I feel better that I have been able to say what I should have a long time ago...
GOODBYE
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