Ok, I know everyone here does not know me but I come here every so often.... anyways, I just initiated something that can be considered a "Bad Breakup". Now, I need to talk about this but my friends aren't home right now and this is all I've got - I need some support.
This girl, her name is Shauna. We had been going out since November 3rd, 2003, so it has almost been 16 months. I know I am only 16, but I could swear that I would marry this girl. She had everything - a great personality, smart, cute... the works. I loved it, and up until June of 04, we never had a fight or anything, talking to each other for hours after school. Sounds perfect, right? Well, around that time, things started getting bad. At the end of June this guy "kisses" her, from what I understand. Since everything was so perfect, I completely understand and I caution her away from the kid (his name is Justin). They had a bad history together, btw.
So that is June. Everything is fine until school starts again, and it hits the middle of September. I wasn't being the nicest person but I was not ignoring her or being bad in anyway, and it happens again (with a different guy). This time, she kissed him, but after a couple of days I get over it because I remember how perfect we usually are.
So things stay very well after that, with a few arguments and things. She starts liking this one guy but she falls out of it, and it gets to January of this year. We had a great Christmas break and school is starting again. One week, I stay home two days in a row from an illness. She gets mad that I am sick because I cannot pay as much attention to her as usual. That weekend a good friend of my Dad's comes over, so I hang with him, and skip out on a day with her (I feel that was perfectly alright, since I can't spend every second with her). But what does she do? Get with Justin again! This time, it has gone way too far, but I am still so much in love with her that I talk to her for hours about respect and love and what to do, etc. It works out. The next week or two she comes over, and we have a lot of fun (note: we never had sex, we are just two scared teenagers). We get very close to it, maybe even technically starting it (that brings me to another question - does only "penetration" count as anything? I don't know, I was stupid... anyways) but we were fine. That was Super Bowl Sunday. We have a good week after that, followed by a bad one (I think just this past week). She had grown increasingly likely to put me down in any way possible, and I had no idea where it came from).
So now, it is yesterday. It is my dad's birthday, so we see Hitch. It was fun and for the first time in a week, I feel truly close to her. We had a lot of fun and we both agreed it was great. I get home, do a little homework, and call her at the normal time (8:30). She talks about her trip to Australia and stuff, and I listen. We get to the prom coming up, and I say "Eh, I might want to go, it doesn't seem like that big of a deal". Instantly, I get yelled at, saying that we "don't see eye to eye on anything", and that we are over. I am taken agast, as I do not know where this is coming from. I apologize and say that I just don't want to have a tux or w/e, and I get the same as before, followed by a hangup. I call her back, and get the same. I repeat and finally she talks to me. We talk it out and it seems fine, and she just says she needs space. We agree to talk today. I get a call around noon, and she says "I hate freedom, ive been bad...etc". She just made out with Justin!! I am completely blown away, and I tell her "well, I told you last time that if this ever happened that it is over. I love you, but goodbye".
I don't know what else to write, so please, some support and comments would be nice. I still really love her and I don't know what to do.
This girl, her name is Shauna. We had been going out since November 3rd, 2003, so it has almost been 16 months. I know I am only 16, but I could swear that I would marry this girl. She had everything - a great personality, smart, cute... the works. I loved it, and up until June of 04, we never had a fight or anything, talking to each other for hours after school. Sounds perfect, right? Well, around that time, things started getting bad. At the end of June this guy "kisses" her, from what I understand. Since everything was so perfect, I completely understand and I caution her away from the kid (his name is Justin). They had a bad history together, btw.
So that is June. Everything is fine until school starts again, and it hits the middle of September. I wasn't being the nicest person but I was not ignoring her or being bad in anyway, and it happens again (with a different guy). This time, she kissed him, but after a couple of days I get over it because I remember how perfect we usually are.
So things stay very well after that, with a few arguments and things. She starts liking this one guy but she falls out of it, and it gets to January of this year. We had a great Christmas break and school is starting again. One week, I stay home two days in a row from an illness. She gets mad that I am sick because I cannot pay as much attention to her as usual. That weekend a good friend of my Dad's comes over, so I hang with him, and skip out on a day with her (I feel that was perfectly alright, since I can't spend every second with her). But what does she do? Get with Justin again! This time, it has gone way too far, but I am still so much in love with her that I talk to her for hours about respect and love and what to do, etc. It works out. The next week or two she comes over, and we have a lot of fun (note: we never had sex, we are just two scared teenagers). We get very close to it, maybe even technically starting it (that brings me to another question - does only "penetration" count as anything? I don't know, I was stupid... anyways) but we were fine. That was Super Bowl Sunday. We have a good week after that, followed by a bad one (I think just this past week). She had grown increasingly likely to put me down in any way possible, and I had no idea where it came from).
So now, it is yesterday. It is my dad's birthday, so we see Hitch. It was fun and for the first time in a week, I feel truly close to her. We had a lot of fun and we both agreed it was great. I get home, do a little homework, and call her at the normal time (8:30). She talks about her trip to Australia and stuff, and I listen. We get to the prom coming up, and I say "Eh, I might want to go, it doesn't seem like that big of a deal". Instantly, I get yelled at, saying that we "don't see eye to eye on anything", and that we are over. I am taken agast, as I do not know where this is coming from. I apologize and say that I just don't want to have a tux or w/e, and I get the same as before, followed by a hangup. I call her back, and get the same. I repeat and finally she talks to me. We talk it out and it seems fine, and she just says she needs space. We agree to talk today. I get a call around noon, and she says "I hate freedom, ive been bad...etc". She just made out with Justin!! I am completely blown away, and I tell her "well, I told you last time that if this ever happened that it is over. I love you, but goodbye".
I don't know what else to write, so please, some support and comments would be nice. I still really love her and I don't know what to do.
ed up and you didnt care enough to get jealous. Most of the time, the first kiss never really happened. She may have just said that to try to get a rise out of you.
