My personal top 5 Nujabes tracks:
1) Luv(Sic) f. Shing02
2) Ain't No Happy Endings (Substantial)
3) Horizon
4) Next View f. Uyama Hiroto
5) Don't Even Try It f. Funky DL
I sort of made the mistake of listening to 1st Collections on my ritual drive to work today. Man... it didn't take long before I found myself swept away in a maelstrom of emotions. If it wasn't for his music putting my troubled mind at ease during some of the worst years of my life I doubt I'd have made it through half as sane. To make a long story short I was wading through so much unnecessary turmoil, broken promises, dead ends, dead or long forgotten friends and a family at their wits end with me for a long while I was sort of trapped in my own hell. Here I was just starting to become a man already dealing with a whole lot of shit WAY past my maturity level forced to handle it on my own. Slowly but surely I was driving myself insane trying to keep my head above water.
I remember though having a chance to breathe for a second and feel comfortable in my own skin the split second I popped the disc into my Walkman then pressed play. I swore to myself time literally stopped when I heard Luv(Sic) for the first time during a work break. Probably because what I had heard was so remarkable it took my breath away. I was in absolute awe. I felt so... normal. My nerves settled and near permanent scowl melted away almost instantaneously. I had forgotten what real stress and near constant anxiety actually felt like in exchange for a few minutes of normalcy. The type of clarity you can't buy or be persuaded to find on some real shit, you know?
In my humble opinion the man didn't just make music, he created life. Living, breathing, pulsing life. Since then I've yet to hear of a track bearing his signature that didn't make me feel crowded in an empty room, comforted by a loved one, or transported me to another universe entirely for a few moments. All of it seemed to effortlessly ensnare you as if it each individual track had a mind of its own. So alive one could question whether you were just listening to music or engaging in conversation with a close confidant. I can confidently say I've felt emotions I had been convinced were impossible to foster by mere melody until I came across his catalog.
He was truly one of a kind and my life would have suffered tremendously without his music being a part of it. Who knows? Maybe one day I can return the favor for someone else someday. Either way it is relatively safe to say should I ever get hitched and have children they'll either grow to love or hate Jun Seba before I die, haha. Much respect and may he truly rest in peace.