Good to hear your back. Whats done is done as it pertains to this lowball. We can only move forward, life is filled with so many curved balls. Somethings that are thrown at us are hard to catch or hit. I recently visited the e.r. and turns out I have a leg infection. However, I had a trade in the works before i went in and trying to resolve asap. Also, staying in constant commnication with other member. I realized that sometimes we have trouble getting by. No foul and no harm done VGC. I hold no grudges, dont worry about refund from my part. Dude, checked out your profile. Mang, your only 21. I am sorry to hear about the tragic incidents in your life. I to went to a same experience with a girl when I was 20. However, cant say our experiences are one in the same. Hang in there. Truth be told, distract yourself, communicate with those who are your loved ones or friends. Pick up a hobby. There are plenty of fish in the sea. "Really, wish I would have listened to that saying." Doesnt mean you did not like/love the person you were with. It is just a way of thinking and different perspectives. When I was caught up in my depression for a long time i built, anger, resentment, and a cold heart. You seem like a decent guy, so to hell with that. Dont cheat yourself in new opportunities. I cheated myself from having an amazing job and meeting such a great person. Live life, and dont rush. You will know when your ready. Just be honest qith yourself and with everyone else. Remember, "Hurt people hurt people." Unfortunately, life is too short. One minute our loved ones are here and then next they are gone. My words come sincerely from my heart. I wish you the best, and if you ever just need to chat, send me a pm.