Hopefully no one takes this personally. It's strictly business, for lack of a better term.
As I said before I left the party, I understood why Nate can get as angry and frustrated as he sometimes does. I often get frustrated with games, but rarely do I get angry unelss exploits and cheats are sued, which was not the case tonight. That was a terrible team effort. The whole team played like shit, and I am not excepted from that. Nate said the defense sucked, but I took that to mean the defensive play of the team and not specifically the defensemen. Destro really shouldn't have been playing at that spot, but he seems to realize that. What I didn't understand was why he didn't seem to have a general idea of where to be on the ice. I have only been watching hockey for 3 years or so, but when I've played different positions, I've at least known where to go. Like I've said before, it is hard to adjust at times, but everyone should know the basics even if inexperience at that position means we aren't as good as we would be at our regular spots.
I'm not sure which group I'm being included in since I pretty much play the 3 nights a week (usually for 4-5 hours) that was mentioned except for when I was without a fully functional Xbox, and of course not always making the "official" Friday nights when I'm out at ECHL games. That, and I've played in the playoffs before and didn't need or care about that achievement. I just wanted to win.
Everyone knows I joke around on the headset just as much as anyone on the team, but I always play to win. Even in private games, I get irritated when people start

ing around and constantly trying to fight or getting penalties for hitting guys for no reason when they know they'll get sent to the box. I am not the best player on my team or even the best defenseman, but I know how to play my position for the most part.
I don't have the same attitude as Nate where I am as open about criticizing people. That's why I'm not the kind of person who can lead the team. I usually don't make too many comments on other people's play. The reason I was mostly criticizing Destro during the game was because he was my defensive partner and his mistakes directly affected me more than it did the forwards and because that's the position I know well and have experience with. I was constantly getting left alone without any help on the right side, and he kept going too far up into the offensive zone when we did get there, or going behind the net and crossing over to the left side for no apparent reason. Ltor was the other guy who seemed to not be taking things seriously at all, saying stuff along the lines of "at least I got the achievement" and shit like that. Like I said, all of us played badly as a team, but I felt like Nate, Shady, and I were at least making an effort even if it didn't turn out well.
That was why I made the comment in that previous game about not losing focus. We killed that team 7-0, and near the end of that game, some people were playing out of position and just going out of their way to try to add to their stats at the expense of playing any defense. It basically devolved into what some private matches have become, and it seemed like that attitude carried over to the playoff game even when guys like me, Brandon, and Nate cautioned against taking our opposition too lightly.
The main reason I got offline without saying much was because, for the first time in a long time, I just didn't want to play because I was embarrassed and disgusted. I like you all just fine as people, and I'm not going to claim I'm one of the top players on the team by any means, but everything about that game
just made me want to punch something.